Last night i decided not to let someone too close to my heart. I have enough trying to staying healthy among all the chems around. Through the past 10 years and more I have struggled with people hurting me in different ways. Before I got asthma I “only” got sad. Now I get lung problems on top of it since emotional stress is really bad for asthma. Emotional stress worsen asthma badly with tight lungs, hard to breathe, mucus from the lungs, bad sounds in the lungs while breathing, and even more heavy medication, and sick leave as a result. All because of bad behaviour, carelessness and ruthlessness.
I find no reason letting people use my life as their personal playground. I am no toy one can move around and treat as one pleases. I am sick and tired of getting hurt. And I do not want breathing problems because of them either. There are enough egoistic and ruthless people around.
I have to think of myself.